For someone of my age, what have I really achieved? By now, I should have my own house, serious “bae” but most importantly my career job. Instead, I live at home, and I work in a place that makes me unhappy.
The above thoughts are thoughts that I had over a month ago, before I flew out to Croatia. Please believe me when I tell you that that short break was needed.
All of my thoughts were negative. In short it was making me feel exceptionally down. For whatever reason, I could not see any positives to my current situation (at the time).
Fast-forward to almost 2 months later, I don’t feel so bad. I mean, I still don’t like my current place of work, but at least I’m working towards doing something about it. It’s a temporary thing, and although I do love some of my work colleagues, I don’t intend on remaining there for long.
I still live with my parents, but lets face it, moving out would cost an arm & a leg (here in London), and with my current financial situation, I am grateful to even have a roof over my head, as well as a warm bed to sleep in at night. There are many benefits/positives to still living with your folks, but I will not bore you by listing them all.
You see, the issue wasn’t/isn’t my current situation, but the issue was myself.
Firstly, my mind frame was consumed with negative thoughts. So much so, that I felt like a failure. I have learnt and told myself that I will continue thinking positive, and speaking nothing but positivity into existence. It is natural to think negative thoughts, but now when a negative thought comes to my mind, I try not to dwell on it. Instead, if I catch myself thinking negatively, I instantly think about something that makes me happy, or future goals and focus on that thought.
Secondly, I was complaining about many things, but not actively doing anything about it. It’s like me complaining that I’m hungry, but not doing anything about this hunger (I’m very quick to sort out my hunger issues by the ways!)
A wise woman at work (I call her my Aunty) said this to me, before I went away:
“I’d love to be your age. If I were your age, I’d do everything I wanted to do. You should take risks and not fear failing. Everything is a learning curve and if you don’t take risks you may become comfortable in this current place of work. That is what happened to me.
Travel, meet new people, move to another country if that’s what will make you happy, give various things a go, you never know where it may take you. Your 20’s are the time for you to discover new things, learn more about yourself, and work towards creating the future that you desire. You are capable of getting anything that your heart desires. ALWAYS remember that”.
She’ll never truly understand what it meant to hear those words, especially as she said it with so much passion. She also told me about her story, which has motivated me further, to do better, and always do what makes me happy.
I will continue to remain focused, motivated and determined.
All in all, I’m grateful for everything I have. I have achieved things that I previously thought would not be possible, and I know that there will be many times ahead that will also have me feeling this way.
Cheers to the future.