Temporary Failure.

For someone of my age, what have I really achieved? By now, I should have my own house, serious “bae” but most importantly my career job. Instead, I live at home, and I work in a place that makes me unhappy.

The above thoughts are thoughts that I had over a month ago, before I flew out to Croatia. Please believe me when I tell you that that short break was needed.

All of my thoughts were negative. In short it was making me feel exceptionally down. For whatever reason, I could not see any positives to my current situation (at the time).

Fast-forward to almost 2 months later, I don’t feel so bad. I mean, I still don’t like my current place of work, but at least I’m working towards doing something about it. It’s a temporary thing, and although I do love some of my work colleagues, I don’t intend on remaining there for long.

I still live with my parents, but lets face it, moving out would cost an arm & a leg (here in London), and with my current financial situation, I am grateful to even have a roof over my head, as well as a warm bed to sleep in at night. There are many benefits/positives to still living with your folks, but I will not bore you by listing them all.

You see, the issue wasn’t/isn’t my current situation, but the issue was myself.

Firstly, my mind frame was consumed with negative thoughts. So much so, that I felt like a failure. I have learnt and told myself that I will continue thinking positive, and speaking nothing but positivity into existence. It is natural to think negative thoughts, but now when a negative thought comes to my mind, I try not to dwell on it. Instead, if I catch myself thinking negatively, I instantly think about something that makes me happy, or future goals and focus on that thought.

Secondly, I was complaining about many things, but not actively doing anything about it. It’s like me complaining that I’m hungry, but not doing anything about this hunger (I’m very quick to sort out my hunger issues by the ways!)

A wise woman at work (I call her my Aunty) said this to me, before I went away:

“I’d love to be your age. If I were your age, I’d do everything I wanted to do. You should take risks and not fear failing. Everything is a learning curve and if you don’t take risks you may become comfortable in this current place of work. That is what happened to me.

 

Travel, meet new people, move to another country if that’s what will make you happy, give various things a go, you never know where it may take you. Your 20’s are the time for you to discover new things, learn more about yourself, and work towards creating the future that you desire. You are capable of getting anything that your heart desires. ALWAYS remember that”.

She’ll never truly understand what it meant to hear those words, especially as she said it with so much passion. She also told me about her story, which has motivated me further, to do better, and always do what makes me happy.

I will continue to remain focused, motivated and determined.

All in all, I’m grateful for everything I have. I have achieved things that I previously thought would not be possible, and I know that there will be many times ahead that will also have me feeling this way.

Cheers to the future.

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11 comments

  1. So touching. Welldone Winnie. I wanna see the actions, not your words/voice. I know you’re determined, but then determination can be nothing when one harbours the fear of failure. You’re destined for greatness, you just need to come out of that she’ll and make it happen. You might wanna consider widening your horizon. You’ve got a degree, (big ups), but waiting to find a job related to it could be a nightmare. You. Might wanna consider putting your other skills into perfect use.

  2. Great post Winie. You are a wonderful individual with a bright future ahead. I am happy that you are taking steps towards bettering yourself and getting out of situations you don’t like. You HAVE achieved a lot and you ARE blessed.
    Last year I worked in retail and hospitality, I was fed up with the way they were treating me so I literally quit. Didn’t turn up to my shift. Now I am much happier doing what I wanna do.
    I live at home too and I like it that way for now. Don’t have to pay no bills or rent and can save up my money for something good.
    You will go far in life Winie, just keep trusting God and taking steps to get closer to where you want to be. I know that you can do it.

    Think positive, keep God close to your heart, pray, do what makes you happy and live life to the fullest.

  3. Chale well said Wini. I guess it’s life eh. It ain’t easy at all but it has to be done. What your work auntie said is very true. Just don’t get too comfortable at your workplace else you’re gonna be stuck at one place. There are so many things that can be achieved in this world. I know every person has one or two skills/talents that God has blessed them with but its up to us to know how to utilise it. Trust me, I’m in your situation. I do know how it feels and I know what is going through your mind every minute, every blessed day. Better days are coming. Just put every talent you have into use. One thing I’ve learnt in this life that we live in is that if you set goals and stay focus, you can achieve them. A long journey starts with a single step sis.

  4. Chale well said Wini. I guess it’s life eh. It ain’t easy at all but it has to be done. What your work auntie said is very true. Just don’t get toyo comfortable at your workplace else you’re gonna be stuck at one place. There are so many things that can be achieved in this world. I know every person has one or two skills/talents that God has blessed them with but its up to us to know how to utilise it. Trust me, I’m in your situation. I do know how it feels and I know what is going through your mind every minute, every blessed day. Better days are coming. Just put every talent you have into use. One thing I’ve learnt in this life that we live in is that if you set goals and stay focus, you can achieve them. A long journey starts with a single step sis.

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